June 5
I do not have to earn love, guidance, and grace. I only need to become available to receive it.
June 5
I need only return, one moment at a time.
One breath.
One hour.
One day.
Again and again, I can place myself in the care of something greater than me.
Not because I am weak.
Not because I am incapable.
But because I was never meant to carry life entirely on my own.
I am learning that surrender is not giving up.
It is opening up.
It is remembering that I am held even when I cannot see the whole path.
For me, Spirit is a loving presence that accepts me exactly as I am.
A presence that does not require perfection.
A presence that does not keep score.
A presence that does not ask me to earn my worthiness.
Love is already here.
Support is already here.
Grace is already here.
I only need to become receptive to it.
I am also learning that shame asks me to lower my eyes.
To hide.
To shrink.
To believe I am somehow less than.
But love asks something different of me.
Love asks me to lift my gaze.
To meet myself with tenderness.
To choose awareness over judgment.
To choose compassion over criticism.
I am free to choose again in every moment.
Today I forgive myself completely and unconditionally for the judgments I have carried against myself.
I release the stories that said I had to be different in order to deserve love.
I release the need to prove my worth.
As I heal, I am learning that trust and surrender walk hand in hand.
Surrender was difficult for me because trust in myself felt difficult for me.
But each time I stay with myself, honor myself, and listen to the quiet truth within me, trust grows.
And as trust in myself grows, I begin trusting life more too.
Surrender becomes softer.
Less like falling and more like being carried.
Sometimes we do not climb mountains to arrive somewhere.
Sometimes we climb for the experience.
For the perspective.
For the becoming.
And sometimes we return carrying a wider view of ourselves and of life.
Grounding Questions
Where am I still trying to earn what may already be freely available to me?
What would change if I met myself with compassion instead of judgment today?
